boyshapedbox | (no subject)

So really, why am I big fat coward???

I really want to apply for a job at Toysmart because it would be the perfect job for me, and there is an opening, but I am too scared to drop off the application.

Why?

Because I might actually get the job.

Normal people would be afraid of being rejected, not me. I'm afraid of they will actually hire me and I'll screw shit up.
A few of my friends work there as well, and it would be amazing working with them because
A. They are fun to be around.
B. It's a Toystore. Your get to play with toys with them. It's encouraged.

But i'm afraid that if I screw up, or suck at the job that they will hate me because it will go from "yay richard!" to "Ugh. I used to like richard, but he makes my job harder and I can't seperate work from my social life, so I won't call him or hang out with him because he sucks at his job."

I am a stupid stupid little boy who needs more sleep, exercise, sunlight, spooning, and making out.