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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Richard
2. Dicky
3. Reeeesherd

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. ODcaffeine (since 6th grade)
2. Not applicable
3. Not applicable

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My build, although I want to trim down a little.
2. My ability to make friends
3. My Humor and comedic timing/creativity

THREE THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Laziness
2. That I have trouble making time for everyone
3. That I put so much comfort into eating

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Polish
2. French-Canadian
3. Ugh.....Total hotness?

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Not getting a job where I can pay back loans
2. Moving away from all the friends I've ever known
3. Too many more that involve friends and family to list.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My pride ring
2. cell phone/ipod
3. internet access

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My Unicorns having sex tshirt
2. Jeans
3. Hot new underwear I got for xmas

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Prodigy ("Music for the Gilted Generation" era)
2. Ummmm....
3. There aren't many "bands" i listen to that I love ALL the stuff they do.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. to make the most of my time in savannah
2. work harder on my portfolio/resume
3. moving to san francisco

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Honesty
2. NOT too much sex (gotta keep is special)
3. Space

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. My friends are my most prized possesions
2. I love sucking on peoples toes
3. I've got a tiny birthmark on my wang.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Hair that smells good
2. Nice proportional boobs
3. Good sense of style

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Body Hair(especially on the chest and stomach)
2. Stocky muscular build/general mass
3. a plump ass and big muscular thighs/back/arms/chest

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. cook
2. drink/smoke/drugs
3. date girls

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. internet proficiancy
2. my website/livejournal
3. tap dancing/dancing in general

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. See both my CT friends longer/see my savannah friends NOW
2. Make peace with my Dad and work on our relationship
3. Kiss Scott and sleep next to him

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. Motion Graphics (corporate/artsy job orientated)
2. DVD menu design
3. Freelance Motion graphics

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Australia
2. Road Trip across USA
3. Japan

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Love someone unconditionaly
2. Be at a point in my life where I feel satisfied
3. See the world

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. People on my friends list (go check)
2. Scott
3. Anyone who sees it and wants to?

(no subject)

Something my sister asked me upset me today and got me thinking.

She pulled me aside and asked me if I liked my dad, and if all I thought about him was negative things. She reads this journal and commented on everything I ever write about my dad is negative stuff.

This alarmed me because she noticed.

But also that I didn't (not really to the full extent).

I choose not to look to deep into me and my dad's relationship because it's not full of happy memories. I mean it's really not filled with many memories at all. All my happy memories are from when I was little, and all the unhappy memories are from high school years. Everything else kinda faded away.

I love my dad. I wish him no ill will. And I appreciate all the hard work he does to provide me with schooling, and money for rent and living. He works his ass off.

And lately he's been trying harder to make our relationship better, and I appreciate that as well.

But I guess in my head I'm battling with him not accepting me as his gay son and how I deal with that emotionally. I tend to focus on the negative in this journal because those wounds are still fresh, and they show no signs of healing...AND because all the "good memories" aren't as dramatic.

I wish my father would get to know me. Get to know me like my sister does, or my mother. My mom actually asks me about topics that matter to me, and pertain to my life. My dad barely can make conversation with me.

But I try not to dwell on that, and I make a textual apoligy to all. My dad is not a horrible man, far from it.
But he's stuck in his ways, and hopefully in the future the walls around him will break apart.