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As I sit here typing this my eyes continue to blur more and more as the tears fall.
I thought I understood how beautiful my friends are and I thought it would be hard to leave them.
I was wrong on both accounts.

My friends mean more to me than I could ever type. The phrase "words cannot express" doesn't even come close to describe them.
If someone asked me to describe my life and who I am...


...I'd talk about them.

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and in my heart I know I will see most if not all of them later on in life, but that still doesn't make it any less painful.

Tonight was my going away dinner at Saigon. It went very smooth, we laughed, we joked, we reminisced. I thought "I can do this. I can handle this."

Then we all met at Club One for a party. I chose club one because:
A. it was free to get in
B. it could hold a lot of people as opposed to having to have a party at someones house
C. it really is my favorite place in Savannah

Now I know I will catch some flack about having a drama-filled gay club as my favorite place but it's true. I met so many people there, I have so many wonderful memories or dancing and have a great time, and I met 3 of the most amazing people there who have shaped and will continue to shape my life.

I call them "The Super Friends" (a nickname given to us about a year ago) and that's exactly what they are. They have stood by me, supported me, and have loved me unconditionally like family.

Here come the tears again.

I love them more than they will ever know. More than ANYONE will ever know. Through my ups and downs there were there to smooth things out.

They will be sorely missed.
And not just them.



All of my friends.
If I've ever hugged you
If I've ever kissed you
If I've ever gotten a ride from you
If I've ever eaten with you
If I've ever pulled an all nighter with you
If I've ever cried in front of you
If I've ever had a conversation with you
If I've ever heard I love you from your mouth

I will miss you.