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Jan. 31st, 2006 12:23 pmReason # 4,029,001 why I love livejournal.
I love that when I get stressed out, instead of dwelling on it, I can post and hear from all my friends at once instead of drudging it back up one at a time.
Yesterday I had this moment where I was so frustrated about everything, but mostly my age. Which is ridiculous now that I think back.
I am 23. I can't change that, I can't make myself any older or younger.
So as soon as I accept that I think I will stop being bothered when other people bring it up.
For the first time in my life I am relating to, and hanging out with, men much older than myself. I love having all that wisdom around me at all times because I often feel like I have SO much left to learn that I don't know where to begin.
I'm pretty naieve, and pretty sheltered. I need to learn to take more risks, but at the same time still keep my wits and morals that I think define who I am and who I want to be.
Slowly I am working on breaking out of my shell (not the shell on the outside, thaaat shell was obliterated a LONG time ago. I'm talking about that shell I keep on my brain).
It's such a dramatic change from my upbringing out here.
*Thanks everyone for their supportive comments on my last post. It feels really good that there are people all over willing to give me a few kind words or a little insight so I don't feel so alone. I need to be reminded that just because everyone as already GONE through what I'm stressing about, doesn't mean they don't remember what it was like.
I love that when I get stressed out, instead of dwelling on it, I can post and hear from all my friends at once instead of drudging it back up one at a time.
Yesterday I had this moment where I was so frustrated about everything, but mostly my age. Which is ridiculous now that I think back.
I am 23. I can't change that, I can't make myself any older or younger.
So as soon as I accept that I think I will stop being bothered when other people bring it up.
For the first time in my life I am relating to, and hanging out with, men much older than myself. I love having all that wisdom around me at all times because I often feel like I have SO much left to learn that I don't know where to begin.
I'm pretty naieve, and pretty sheltered. I need to learn to take more risks, but at the same time still keep my wits and morals that I think define who I am and who I want to be.
Slowly I am working on breaking out of my shell (not the shell on the outside, thaaat shell was obliterated a LONG time ago. I'm talking about that shell I keep on my brain).
It's such a dramatic change from my upbringing out here.
*Thanks everyone for their supportive comments on my last post. It feels really good that there are people all over willing to give me a few kind words or a little insight so I don't feel so alone. I need to be reminded that just because everyone as already GONE through what I'm stressing about, doesn't mean they don't remember what it was like.
